The reason I decided to write and possibly write again is because of a recent huge life changing experience and also so I can vent and move on.
You know I love Jesus and I know HE loves me. I just didn't know how much until a couple days ago. I go back and forth with HIS love since I don't know how to love or be loved properly because of my upbringing. Sometimes I think HE has forgotten me but the other day showed me NOPE.. I AM HERE AND I AM GOD watch me move.
There was something so special to me that was my part of my career and also my life. I knew this one thing in and out and for 10 years of my life. It was a part of me, like a part of my being. Well, just as I said, I didn't think Jesus was moving in my life. So I decided to pray for my life and fast. I wanted my life to move and move in a great direction. I felt that my life was just sitting there for a long time. Well, let me tell you. Be careful for what you pray for. LOL
Dang, my life turned upside down in one day. One of my favorite parts of my life was removed from me in an instant. Like lightning flashed and it was gone. 10 years of something I knew and loved so much.. gone ... POOF LIKE THAT. The picture above with Jesus and the little girl is me. I didn't want to give Jesus my teddy bear. I loved that teddy bear so much! It made me laugh, made me feel secure and made me feel loved. I know that God asked me for it before but I didn't want to give it to him. It was MINE MINE MINE AND MINE.. LOL Just like the kid in the sandbox.
I was and am still hurt but I now have to put my faith in Jesus that I have this huge teddy bear coming in my life, just like that picture. It is hard since I can't see it but I trust. I told my friend, Dang, I wish HE didn't love me so much but I am glad HE does.
2 comments:
Great analogy!! You ARE going to get that big teddy bear, I just know it! God is good!
Great analogy!! You ARE going to get that big teddy bear, I just know it! God is good!
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